I am binging. I binge every time I'm about to go on a diet. I load up on all the goodies I love, probably gaining some pre-diet weight in the process. I've tried lots of diets. Weight Watchers. Calorie Counting. Nutrisystem. Herbalife. HCG123. Calorie counting again. Weight Watchers again. I am always motivated for the first month or so, then I revert back to my old ways. Vacation is a killer for me. I travel a lot and whenever I go out of town, I go on vacation mode from my diet. Then I have a returning home vacation high for two or three days. Then I just give in to the fact that I've fallen off my own diet wagon. I settle into being ok with myself. Then one day I go back to wanting a better body. I think about how daunting that seems, how overwhelming it seems. To change the way I eat and live. To exercise. I let go of all self control. I binge. I feel miserable. I want to start trying to lose weight again. So I pre-diet binge some more. It's a vicious cycle. Here we go again.
Last weigh in 10/20/12 - 208.6 lbs. Record high.
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